On This Day…

By on November 22, 2007 @ 6:00 pm

I have to thank God for those times he spared my life: The many times as a child when I contemplated suicide, the time in that hotel in Scranton when I damn near died high on E fused with liquor and weed, the time when I crashed the Pathfinder on black ice leaving Wilkes-Barre on my way back home to the Poconos and nobody was on the road but the man who salts the road and myself, the time I walked through that shoot out on my way into my old building, also the time when I got jumped in the hood and them niggas threatened to shoot me.
I have to thank God for the people both negative and positive who are either in my life or have found their way out of my life for whatever reason. No matter how I view it, the experiences I’ve gone through indeed made me strong enough to face the trials and tribulations that take place in the present.
On This DayI have to thank God for showing me constantly that I have but so much control in my life. I know that nothing is possible without that higher power directing my path even if at times I may stray trying to find my own way.
I have to thank God for this day because this gift is priceless and non-perishable. Just as it is given, it could be easily taken away without warning.
I have to thank God for making me who I was before the ways of the world tarnished my mind with so many worldly things. I am thankful for the ability to see my way through the fog that once blinded me.
I am thankful for my teachers, peers, elders, co-workers and associates who actually believed in me because for so long, I didn’t even believe in myself. That alone helped me see the potential in me that I couldn’t see myself. I still struggle at times with my confidence, but each and every day I am growing harder, better, faster, stronger. And for that, I am thankful.

God bless each and every creature who breathes the air we breathe and who deals with the daily struggle. Bless those who have hatred in their hearts, who don’t have a shoulder to lean on, an ear to listen, the strength to cry. Bless those who don’t have a family to share the holidays with. Bless those who are sick and shut in, who aren’t as fortunate as the next person. Bless those who are financially wealthy and don’t feel happiness in their lives, bless those who are generous in every aspect of the word. Bless those eyes who read these words on this page! In Jesus name, Amen.

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invisiblewoman November 23, 2007

Beautiful meditation.

Ms. Q November 23, 2007

I “second the emotion” said by Invisible Woman. Your words and those of Urban Thought (who wrote a post about a young man who had friends who supported him but whose own mother wondered aloud why she even had him) really shows how having someone believe in us makes such a difference! I have had guides, mentors and champions in my life. They have made a difference.

Children contemplating suicide. How awful.

I used to think that it was all up to me and asking for help was weak. I’m learning that it’s not weak to ask – we don’t have all the answers and we can’t do it all. It’s good to allow people or a higher power to help.

I’ve heard, “Let go and let God” and “Ego means Edging God Out”

It sounds like you’re on the right path.

Amen to your words, amen!

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